My Trinity

Tuesday, January 4, 2005

No Ex

God does answer some of my prayers the way I expect him to sometimes. No ex. He didnt call, didnt email, didnt do anything. Visit was to be from the 3rd through the 6th and no sign of him. Oh Well. I dont think the girls really believed he was coming anyway.

Good Morning, My Love

Good Morning, my love, what a beautiful day it is. God has kept his covenant promise to us to always have day and night and joy comes in the morning when we can see the light. ThankYou God for waking me up yet again, to begin new and wonderous things today. Today, I get to try again to get things right. Thank You, Lord for today. Today is the beginning of the rest of my life. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You.

Matthew 16:18 And I tell you that you are Peter, and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of Hades will not overcome it. (NIV)

Matthew 16:18 And I say also unto thee, That thou art Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church; and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it. (KJV)

I meditated on this scripture, preparing for the bible study series, this morning. Peter has told the Lord who he believes Jesus to be and Jesus is pleased with the answer that he is the Christ, the sone of the Living God. He tells him that he is blessed because he believes even though this is not revealed to him by man, but by his Father in heaven. And upon that belief, that faith, he will build his church, believe eventhough you have not seen. Peter has been with him through all the miracles recently. He knows he can heal, he can feed, he can do anything. He believes. Diciples must believe that through Christ Jesus we can do anything. But beware of the those that come to trip us up. He warns them not to take the yeast. Yeast being something that starts off small but can increase and rise what every it is put into. Don't let the little stuff that seems harmless now infect you to where it can rise up and become way more that what you ever expected. He says if we build our church, our faith, our belief, on his rock the the gates of hell shall not prevail. Stand on Jesus. I'm sure when Jesus asked them who do men say I am they all had an answer, some said John the Baptist, some Elijah, others, Jeremiah. But when asked who do you say I am, only Peter jumped to the challenge and proclaimed Thou art the Christ, the Son of the living God and Jesus blessed him and built his church upon his faith.

Well my love, its off to try to do some of the things I'm suppose to do today. I want you to have a productive day, enjoy the challenges, reap the rewards and be blessed, know that you are loved.

First JCPenneys, then St. Sabina, then Dad's.

Be blessed and be a blessing to someone today.

Monday, January 3, 2005

Good Night, Good Night, Good Night

Well, tomorrow I have to go and get new glasses. I'm going to JCPenney, they have a sale of the lineless bifocals. I'm so excited, lineless. I can't fathom the idea of contacts, so I contiinue on with glasses. Maybe one day I will be able to stick my finger in my eye and place a foreign object into it. Lots of people do it.

Class was really class. We have three books that are required and one more suggested, which she constantly refers to, the good thing is I have that book already. We have assignments and projects already. No more complaints about being bored with nothing to do.

I will be in tomorrow to buy my ticket for the Danny Glover event, Underground Railroad trip and donate to the tsunami.

I also have to go to Dad's tomorrow. Since we don't have bible study, I have loads of free time on Tuesdays.

You are the only one for me so if there's a problem with me thinking like that you had better tell me now. Otherwise, that's it for me. I will talk, plan and prepare for you. In the mean time good night and God bless. I look forward to talking to you in the morning.

Good Morning, Good Morning, Good Morning

All blessings and honor to you my Lord, on this beautiful day. Yes, beautiful, because I opened my eyes this morning and I am able to get up and go about my daily little duties. Thank You Lord for another day. Thank you for blessing me today. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You.

Good Morning to You to My Dear.

This is the third day of the new year and I am thanking God for giving me an opportunity to sit down in my home at anytime and send a message to you. You have the ability to receive my message at anytime. We communicate. At this time last year we didn't have this ability. I complained about it being the only thing, we didn't have that a year ago. I wonder what we have in a year? So I am embracing this journal, it allows me to communicate with you no matter where you are.

Our God is an Awesome God. I can't stay mad at God for long because he allows me to see his goodness in my life constantly. I don't understand everything and I must stop trying, and just release it and let it go and let God take over.

I release it, I am stepping into something new. I'm listening to yesterday's sermon and I am refusing to take anything into the new year. No anger, rage, resentment. I am walking away from old stuff.New beginnings, new possibilities, new blessings. New health and new healings. New, New, New. A fresh annointing.

Thank you for being my Pastor. I am blessed to have you as the man of God in my life. A fresh annointing on my life. A new thing in my life. God is doing a new thing in my life. I think T.D. Jakes is doing your sermon. I happened to listen to him this morning and he was talking about Lazarus, Mary and Martha. Jesus as the prophet and priest and he will continue with Jesus as King. Very Interesting.

I am expecting the crazy, supernatural, illogical things of God. Be Blessed and Be a Blessing to Someone today. I love you.

I choose this picture because I said last night that I felt I would be sitting on that pew in church in ten years with nothing changed but I want you to know that if I am still sitting on that pew in church and nothing has changed between us I will still worship my God, my Lord, My King. All Glory and Honor to You, My Lord.

Sunday, January 2, 2005

Who will cry

I will cry at your funeral. I don't even want to think about you being dead, especially since I have yet to have a life with you. I ask the angels in heaven to protect you and keep you well.

I Am A New Creature

I continue to hope.

I am mad at God. He hasnt done what I asked him to do. I just continue to do what I believe is the right thing. Pray, pray, pray. I continue to believe and have faith. Faith the size of a mustard seed. But none the less faith. Each day I wake with hope of something new and different in this relationship.

I continue to come to church, continue to pray everyday, continue to read the bible everyday. I'm not so much concentrating on speaking to you, that will come naturally, I know that, I'm wondering about the us, the me and you, the togetherness. I wonder if this is all there is for us, no more or no less. Just this.

I wonder if this is all we will ever have. Am I destined to only love you from afar? I think that this will never change. But yet, I walk by faith and not by sight. I can do all things through Christ.....

I stand on his word. Born again. Each day renewing my relationship with God, my Lord, my King. I believe that good things are in store for me. I believe.

I will embrace my journal because its my communication to you. God has allowed this so I will embrace it and continue to let you get to know me.

I'm sorry for using the "_-hole" when referring to my ex, but I was a sailor and I used every word available to talk to him and describe him at one time. I imagine God wants me to heal this relationship and that's what I'm going to do. He's suppose to arrive tomorrow and I don't know yet if he is even coming. I want him to come for the girls sake since he told them he would but I could just as well do without him.

We went out after church to celebrate Toni's birthday. We went to a Cuban restaurant on the North Side. Yesterday we celebrated Felice's birthday. She had an open house for her birthday party. I am so glad this week is over. Tomorrow I have to go back to my handyman routine. Over to my dad's then I have a class that starts at 5:30. It will be that way for 10 weeks. I'm at the Naperville campus, Lincoln Park. I plan to start back at Women's Workout World. My friend and I go. She's at Sylvan also. We go M W F mornings. By having a buddy it makes me more accountable. I'm not very consistent if I have to do it by my self.